Growing Up

Growing up. Its awful, and I hate it. Just the fact that I have to write a blog about growing up makes me mad. If I could, I would live the rest of my life at this stage of my life, the perfect mix of responsibility and fun. I don't know how its happened, how I got from playing with matchbox cars to driving real cars. I guess it started at the end of Lenape and will continue for years. In 5th grade I was faced with my grandpa having cancer, in 6th grade I faced such a bad end to my friendship with my best friend since pre-k that I didn't even go to school for a couple days. One of the highlights of growing up has been finding out who my true friends were, and surrounding myself around them; that all happened in middle school. Growing up resulted in me not realizing dreams, the first times that failure killed me. For the first time I needed to worry about things like girls, shaving, and about being responsible and trustworthy. For me, Middle School sucked until 8th grade, besides stupid drama I found myself stuck in . I don't know what else to say, growing up just sucks. One of the things that factors into it is the responsibility. Having a job, juggling APs, driving a car while mom stays home waiting to hear from me, doing clubs and activities and trying to work on an Eagle Scout Project while still trying to be a kid. Thinking about it, I'm far from being fully grown up, but I'm saddened thinking about the past. I hate when I refer to my childhood or starting a sentence by "When I was a kid..." Honestly, I miss the days of playing rescue heroes and matchbox with my dad on a snow bank over Christmas break. I miss show and tell, and Elmo and Barney. Not having a worry in the world that was more important than which Star Wars movie I was going to watch. But all things must come to an end, and life still is pretty good. I love coming across new milestones, the most recent of which being hopping in the car, rolling down the windows, blasting the radio and cruising by myself. In the end, maybe growing up isn't too bad.